Growing Pains

Looking back, I've realized I've not been mature and balanced as I wanted the colleges to believe. If I had been, I wouldn't have gone astray at JKUAT, a local university I enrolled in May 2007 following my rejection by the American colleges.
Honestly, I don't know what was going on in my head as I hung around JKUAT in August 2008 while my family worried sick about me, something I did again when I was at the University of Nairobi (UoN) in 2011. To think that I could behave that immaturely!
Even after dropping out of UoN later in 2011, I kept behaving immaturely. One Friday night that year for instance, I slept on our farm for a reason unclear to me now. But I remember lying to Mum that I was from church when I went back to the house in the morning.
Not one to be fooled, Mum told me I had slept on our farm and then added that she would spend the day dozing in her shop because of me. I didn't get to know if she dozed but as for me, terrible guilt assailed me that day. It was like the whole world was condemning me.
Since old behaviors die hard, I did some other foolish deeds as time wore on, like meddling in my friends' affairs, reacting in anger to minor provocations, sending annoying messages to some people and gloating at the misfortune of a former schoolmate.
Now that I've grown wiser, I'm striving to be mature and balanced as I wanted the American colleges I applied for admission in 2006 to believe I was. I've been trying to act responsibly, empathize with other people's problems and listen to criticism without letting it get to me.
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