Over the years since 2008, I have added more Bible verses to my arsenal of memorized Scripture for use in my spiritual warfare. My latest addition to that arsenal is 1st Corinthians 13:4-7, those well-known verses that expound on the meaning of love.
A week ago, I substituted the word "love" in 1st Corinthians 13:4-7 with my name. And you know what? The verses made more sense to me with my name in them. Here's how they read when I used my name:
Thuita is patient, Thuita is kind. He does not envy, he does not boast, he is not proud. He is not rude, he is not self-seeking, he is not easily angered, he keeps no record of wrongs. Thuita does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. He always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.While reflecting on the above version of 1st Corinthians 13:4-7, parts of it didn't sound like me even though I have been a practising Christian since 2008. Can I tell you how I have acted contrary to my version of those well-known verses? Okay, let me do so by listing some of the virtues mentioned in the verses and how I have contravened them.
- Patient:I have sometimes been impatient at accomplishing my dreams, especially at meeting the woman of my dreams. Instead of concentrating on becoming a better person and entrusting to God the task of connecting me to my dream woman, I have spent time and money in search of her. I have even gone to the extent of putting an advert in a local newspaper to no success.
- Kind: Well, I am kind by nature. But I have sometimes behaved like a mad bull. In 2013 for instance, I reacted angrily to Dad when he poked me in the chest while castigating me for arriving home late at night after he had closed the gate of our home.
- Not envious: To be honest with you, I have sometimes been sick with envy and jealousy. One morning in 2014 for example, a neighbour's worker called me to help him uproot a tree. Upon entering the neighbour's home that morning, I was envious of the stately mansion on the compound and wondered when I would ever own such a mansion.
- Not rude: As I have said, I am kind by nature. But I have sometimes acted arrogantly. There was an evening in 2013, for instance, when I called my brother Paddy "pumbavu", a Swahili word for a fool. Although I wasn't serious in calling Paddy "pumbavu", I am afraid that I might have hurt him.
- Not self-seeking: After I badly lost in the 2013 Kenya's general elections, I wrote an email to my friends, telling them I was so heartsick for not winning the political seat I was vying for that I didn't care if the country plunged into violence again. That was something very selfish of me to say and I have been feeling guilty about it. It seems I was just a self-seeking person back in 2013.
- Keeps no record of wrongs: I am generally a forgiving person, but I sometimes struggle with bitterness. And during the times I wallow in bitterness, I often find myself remembering all the times a person has wronged me. I will never forget the night in 2016 when I wrote a list of all the times my kid brother Symo had wronged me when we used to stay together in the years 2014 and 2015. Fortunately, I didn't share the list in a WhatsApp group of my siblings as I had intended to do.
- Hopeful: I have always desired to be a hopeful, optimistic person like Bill Clinton, my hero. But I sometimes worry about what could go wrong in the future. Just last Monday at around 7:10 p.m., I caught myself worrying what I would do if a certain relative came to stay with us. Soon after I became aware of the worry, I turned my mind to thoughts of hope, of me accomplishing my dreams.
My beloved reader, I challenge you to also open your Bible to 1st Corinthians 13:4-7 and substitute the word "love" with your name as I have done above. Then memorize and reflect on the verses to see whether they sound like you with your name in them. And use that knowledge to assess where you need to change or improve on. Adieu!
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