At around 9:15 a.m. that day, I felt a bit fatigued. Since I had risen earlier than usual, I reasoned that having a catnap on my chair would rejuvenate me. So I leaned on the chair and closed my eyes.
Moments after sleep swept over me, I woke up and picked a pillow to cushion my head against the hardness of my chair. Adding the pillow made my sleep so delicious that I hopped into bed for a more restful sleep.
Several seconds after lying on my bed, I remembered the biblical warning against sleeping during the day. That made me get out of bed immediately.
I felt depressed for sleeping at daytime. Say what you may but I believe it is the devil who tempted me to sleep on my chair, and then brought on more temptations of adding a pillow and hopping into bed. He is such a wily creature.
That experience made me realize that, even with all the Bible study I have been doing, I am still capable of sinning. So, Mahatma Gandhi had it right when he said:
It is unwise to be too sure of one's own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err.Realizing I can sin has made me believe it was wise of me to accept Jesus as my Savior mid last year. After doing so, I began to heal from the hate and guilt that had assailed my soul for years.
Given the way I have struggled to get rid of hate and guilt, I agree with Kahlil Gibran when he said, "One of the hardest lessons in life is letting go. Whether it's guilt, anger, love, loss or betrayal. Change is never easy. We fight to hold on and we fight to let go."
Now that I am growing in love and faith, I am better placed to forgive those who have wronged me, especially after understanding that everybody is going through a problem of one kind or another.
Many people think the main things in life are having a job and a family. As for me, the main things are walking in love and faith. That's why I am so glad to be healing from hate and guilt.
Perhaps it is that healing that has made me feel a sense of kinship with every person I have met in my hometown of Kiserian over the past one week during my morning walk. Believe me, I had avoided talking to some people.
Jesus has really been molding me into His likeness. I am therefore trying to overcome the shame I had of saying "I am saved." Gosh, I was even ashamed of mentioning His name that is above all names!
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RECOMMENDATION: If you've enjoyed the above story on forgiveness and healing, you might also enjoy another one on "Healing of the Soul" which I wrote two years ago. Just click that link in blue to dive straight into the story.
